The last two weeks...

These last two weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions.  Happy, sad, depressed, elated, distraught, hopeful, anxious...you name it, I felt it.  It started with my first month of being cleared to try to conceive again.  Lo and behold...we did.  Of course, after a few ups and downs, it's already over, but for a moment I actually thought things were going to go my way.  I mean, the first try!  Due in July for Hayley's birthday!  Perfect!  But then...guess not.  So, here I am still wondering why it is the world seems to think it is so funny to let me hit the jackpot, only to snatch it away after a few days for some unknown reason...again.  Four in a row now.  Fifth time's a charm?  Yeah, well...I'm not holding my breath.